Jan.29th

im caught up!!!

well today was good. i decided to talk to tess and ashley today. just pretended like things were normal(i hope they are). Ugh and in 6th since im technically hospitality when this other girl isnt there(which is all the time now) i had to get all the aides and me to do these envelope stuff. We had to stuff and seal. It was easy then too many aides came in and the papers were taking forever to print. I was SSOO good at sealing. This guy came in and helped and he wasn't too shabby looking(haha). Then I went to krystals after school with chelsea. it was so much fun. Tried some weird foods and i told her she better make me something insanely awesome for my birthday. oh and one day to bring me some cute apple cinnamon muffins. Shes also going to make us some onigiri(?) and some weird, but delicious looking stuff that we thing is tofu and eggs(YUM). Well we finally went and worked on our project. we fought so much. then we went and messed around online for a bit. watched some weird anime show. and some sxe hil(love him!). She let me borrow her memoirs of a geisha book. i've been wanting to read that forever. Oh she also had some cool snacks in her room. she had these cheeto like puff shape stuff that tasted like pancakes!! i was in heaven. Then she freaked about something and went to find her brother and something in his room. Chelsea and i wanted to hide, but she took forever so we went to see what she was doing. She was looking for something in her brother's room(it smelt like onions blegh) Then she had these weird things and it was laser tag!!! i've never played laser tag so i was freaking out by then. Then she said that she was missing a gun and the batteries were dead. i told her she better get that situated because im coming over one weekend and she better have it ready next time. She also had this hat im going to steal from her. Its those cool russian like hats and it had the ear flaps and fur and all. OH MY GOD i want one so bad. i like bamtastic in it. no lie. it was a good day today.

jan.28th

still more drama. god.

i hung out with Stacia today!! God how i miss her. we went to the park like we normally do and just talked about everything. It was nice. Then cameron saw me and started crying so i had to check him out and he just hung around with us. We went to the rock climbing area and on our way back this lady that works at the boys and girls club asked if we were under 18. We say yeah and then she asks if we want snacks!! i was freaking out. thats way beyond cool. We got little milk cartons and cinnamon graham crackers(yum). We had a blast. I even talked to Ariel Rendt whom i haven'tt alked to since middle school(?!) It was a good day, can't wait to hang out with her again.

Jan. 27th

Still more lame drama. Supposedly a fight's brewing( hahahaha). Well chelsea, cassie and me hung out for a little bit after school and we went to the Water Polo game. it was a little bit too cold for me. So chelsea and me left and walked to my mom's new store building place(1520 Main Street!) We pooled our money together and bought a pizza and breadsticks from Domino's. I didn't eat lunch and i got hungry. So we went to the glasses place and ordered my new glasses(!). Then we went to Domino's picked up our food and went back to the store. We pulled a table and chairs out and ate while watching people drive by. i know we're that cool. God that pizza was so good. then we had to help and paint and it was fun. I'm in love with classical music and i found a techno version of Mozart's "O Fortuna" from Carmina and it was amazing. Painting and dancing, good combo. We had to clean the brushes when we were getting ready to go home and i got bored and got paint all over my hands so i was like eh whatever and wrote my name in paint. On the ground. in our parking lot. i know Risk-ay. Well then we had to take Chelsea home. When we got home i was cold so i curled up in bed with a book and went to bed at 2 i think.

Jan.26th

Todays my moms birthday!!!! She's thrirty years older than me. Cool i know. well i guess theres been some drama, but i don't really want to start stuff even more(even though i did nothing in the first place). All i did today was read "Confession's of a Shopaholic" again. I can't wait to see the movie event though their making her a New Yorker and not british. LAME.

Jan. 25th

well i did absolutley nothing today. not even take a picture because it was that lame. oh wait i read Hamlet. Which i love. Mainly Ophelia, shes so tragic and i believe that maybe hamlet did have the Oedipus Complex. it makes a little sense.

Jan. 24th.

god i haven't done this in a while so im backed up and doing like 5 days in one so bear with me.

So today was shannon and amanda's birthday party. it was so much fun. i talked to john for a little, then i started talking to everybody else. then when some people left we started goofing around with them. ah man it was so much fun. this girl mikayla is insane. she has a bladder problem, but she loves to laugh. A LOT. she had an accident at the party. great times. we just sat around and had a good time with them. john gave me a ride home, yeah i know junior giving a senior a ride classic, we got home like at 12. Overall it was a good fun time. i love those two. Shannon's been one of my best friends since i was 4 (crazy i know we are that awesome). i love looking at old pictures of us from like 4th grade. ugh we always did some crazy stuff.

Jan. 23rd - Remembrance

-Soo today started out ok. i read "Confessions of a Shopaholic"(totally going to be me after i move to London after college haha) Then i had to go to Rubio's for dinner to raise money for Grad Nite. Chelsea was on her way home so i made her meet up with me(aw).
-Then we went to this fundraiser concert thing that i was supposed to help with, but i wasn't told about anything(surprise, surprise). It was weird going there. They played like hard core music which sounds like total shit to me honestly(my opinon you can listen to what you want, i won't complain, yet you complain about me liking dancey music...kah). Its all screaming and crap music playing. Well it was awkward because out of all our friends there only sarai and krystal said hi(?).
-So we booked it and started walking to the high school. We talked while walking and my sister wouldn't come get me so i went to chelsea's house to wait for someone to get me. While we were there we just talked about everything. Mainly all our problems in life. It's nice to actually have someone close to talk to about these things and totally be understanding without being a jerk about everything i tell them.
-Then when i got home i finished my book and started reading "Mansfield Park" again. Then i jumped onto my computer and started looking at old pictures. Its great being able to look back at all the friends i had and lost.
-All those great times, i wouldn't trade them for the world. I love all my old friends and new ones, but things always seem to happen. Its like i was meant to not have sincere friends or something. Its total crap, like im supposed to be alone and i know that i can't. I can't deal with loneliness honestly, i freak out. I need people around me, not because i have an ego, i just don't want to be alone in life. With nobody to talk to or anything. Heart wrenching. Im an old fashioned romantic which makes my love life horrible. i don't like what couples are up to these days, but i do want someone to love the rest of eternity. ugh i went from friends to love. which are both horrible subjects for me. oh well that was my day. a horrible yet delightful day.

p.s. im not doing a new picture because this day has to do with more than i can do in one day. (sorry about the blues, but im in that bluey mood and i wanted to end with dark blue because i love that color. this one doesn't count.)

(order is: First two are freshman year:Lauren, Rain, Stacia, and Brandy, Third is Sophmore year(while i was friends with people my grade this is who i mainly hung out with because we went to concerts all the time): Shannon, Amanda and Lauren; Fourth one is Junior Year: Mackenzie, Chelsea S., Alexa and Symone and last one is this year Senior Year: Chelsea, Sarai, Ashley and Tess. These girls are who made me who i am. If it wasn't for them i literally wouldn't be here today. They keep me alive and happy.

Jan.22nd

Today was a good day. Last of my finals. i had english which was way too easy and then i had aideing even though we didn't do anything. Well we all decided that we should go out to dinner ad celebrate. Only place to really go is Denny's(blegh). Well it was fun. We talked about how we can't wait to have kids( ah to have my little Ophelia Jeanette is something i can't wait for) and then we went outside and sat in the back of tess' truck. Then brian tried to teach us some hardcore dance. It didn't go so well.. Then we went to Albertson's to originally mess with John Huss. We messed around in the Valentine's aisle and then i left. I came home and felt like going outside. i didn't want to go all the way out to my rock so i set up an old lamp, a blanket and candles underr my tree behind my room. It was a fabulous thing. Lying under the beautiful stormy sky with my favorite relaxation music, Claude Debussy(awesome bossome haha), and i took some amazing pictures. I loved this night. I walked around a lttle bit too. Then i came back into my room and freaked because a little frog was on my screen door so i had to search my room to make sure another one didn't get in. One didn't god i hate frogs so much. Disgusting little things. Well that was my day. Overall a magical day.

Jan. 21st

Ugh today was horrible. i was completley exhausted so i slept until 6. Then my mom had to get stuff for my portfolio for english. Typical mom she didnt come home until 9.30 and then she had to go to wal-mart and she finally got my stuff around 10.45. ugh i finished, but i was not tired after sleeping all day. i went to bed at 2.30 and i woke up at 6.45. i've been late all week for finals. ugh.

Jan. 20th

Well for my Ap environmental class we got extra credit to go down to Seaport Village and take a picture with our favorite globe from this exhibit called Cool Globes. It was pretty awesome. Another plus is that i love the water at winter time. It was wonderful. We walked around a lot and just goofed about things. It was a great time. Chelsea and Ashley went since we all have that class. Im glad we went together. We were going home and we got in-n-out and jambe juice. I got this drink called fruity pebbles. it sounded good and tasted good, but it was a little too sweet for me. It was way too much orange for me.

Jan.19th

Well i have my first final tomorrow. my sign language one and my history. ugh im not ready for my ASL one. I have to make a story and sign my partners story. Which i don't know. Mine looks cute all my pictures are amazing, seriously. Well thats all...

Jan.18th

ugh things have been so busy for me. I've had finals all week so im doing all my past days now.

So sunday was boring. Chelsea finally left this morning(haha). i didn't do much just google a bunch of random things(appropriate thank you very much) and just read. I bought William Butler Yeats faeiry tales and i love them. He's one of my favortie authors/poets. Well that was pretty much it.

Jan. 17th

Well i didn't do much today. Chelsea ended up just staying the whole day and spending the night again. We watched movies all day then walked around my yard. Then chrissy my neighbor stalked us and hung out with us on some rocks. Cameron and me fought when we were there. Then when we came back we just watched some more movies. Around like 9.30 we decided to have dinner so we went to Albertson's and bought stuff for hamburgers. an hour later they were done and were like hockey pucks. Disgusting. I cut the bottom off mine and still didn't work. The fries were good. I made those. Then we watched Tropic Thunder. Horrible movie. Today was a slow day.

Jan.16th

Well today was fun. Ashley, Chelsea and Sarai came over and we had a stickam night. It was pretty funny. The people on their amuse me. A LOT. We carried our living room coffee table into my room. It was way too big for my room, but it worked out actually. They spent the night and we woke up to Cameron and my dog woody attacking ashley and chelsea in the morning. Then i made some pretty darn good pancakes. It was a great time.

Jan. 15th

Well according to the school i was at home sick with the stomach flu. Pfft i was at Disneyland. It was fantastic like always. We made our mom get us season passes and im trying to go again next friday after finals. That would be awesome (obviously krystal and cassie would go. Duh!) Well it was interesting because my favorite place is gone. Triton's fountain was replaced by the oh so ever craptastic Pixie Hollow. I hate tinkerbell now(or tinker bitch as cory calls her) Well we had a blast. We went on all the rides except the Matterhorn. Most of the rides had a ten minute wait or barely that. They have fantasmic back so no more parade's which i love. They also still haven't opened up it's a small world. The Haunted Mansion was closed too(like always..)

Well i still have homework to do and im exhausted. Till tomorrow.

Jan. 14th

ugh today was a rough day. 1st period was long and boring. i tried this really weird energy drink. I haven't had an energy drink in a long time. like a year or more. i really hate them, but this one tasted weird. It was good and then gross. Then lunch happened. Things have been rough with my friends lately and i guess people are talking shit and they believed it all at first(i hope not anymore) and we just talked things out. People out of our group got involved and made it worse. Except that little red head Eric. What a good kid. Things are good now i guess. Im excited about Disneyland tomorrow. Cassie was supposed to, but then nikki was going so i owe cassie. When i go next month krystal and cassie will go then. Might make it into an us trip only then...huh that could work. still can't believe krystal hasn't been since 7th grade. blasphemous. well then im going to plan that because since my family invested in disney and bought season passes we're going to go at least once a month. plenty of times to take all my friends. and in april it'll be easier to take more people.

wow. Jan13th.

so i went to my friends Cassie's water polo game today. First one i went to. Chelsea came too and it was amazing. Seriously. There was this and gorgeous guy. Way too delicious and gorgeous for ramona people. Stupid orange glen.... i also tried a swim cap on for the first time...it was weird. and painful to take off.

Jan. 12th

i didn't do anything monumental today, just did homework so i don't fail classes my senior year.

Jan. 11th

3 months till my 18th birthday on the dot, i took this because well i wish i could never sleep so i could take in the beauty of the night, while live normally during the day.

I also did the other one because i just got my hair cut and my bangs are on the other side and i've had them the other way since 8th grade year. Wow.

Start of my 365 Project- Saturday Jan. 10th

well to start this off with a bang i went midnight bowling with my friends and my sister. It was amazing i was Ball buster because of how i bowl. Shelby was ball licker because well she licked a bowl,almost. Nikki was short shit. Chelsea was at first level 10 wizard then became vag face. It was a great night.