-Then we went to this fundraiser concert thing that i was supposed to help with, but i wasn't told about anything(surprise, surprise). It was weird going there. They played like hard core music which sounds like total shit to me honestly(my opinon you can listen to what you want, i won't complain, yet you complain about me liking dancey music...kah). Its all screaming and crap music playing. Well it was awkward because out of all our friends there only sarai and krystal said hi(?).
-So we booked it and started walking to the high school. We talked while walking and my sister wouldn't come get me so i went to chelsea's house to wait for someone to get me. While we were there we just talked about everything. Mainly all our problems in life. It's nice to actually have someone close to talk to about these things and totally be understanding without being a jerk about everything i tell them.
-Then when i got home i finished my book and started reading "Mansfield Park" again. Then i jumped onto my computer and started looking at old pictures. Its great being able to look back at all the friends i had and lost.
-All those great times, i wouldn't trade them for the world. I love all my old friends and new ones, but things always seem to happen. Its like i was meant to not have sincere friends or something. Its total crap, like im supposed to be alone and i know that i can't. I can't deal with loneliness honestly, i freak out. I need people around me, not because i have an ego, i just don't want to be alone in life. With nobody to talk to or anything. Heart wrenching. Im an old fashioned romantic which makes my love life horrible. i don't like what couples are up to these days, but i do want someone to love the rest of eternity. ugh i went from friends to love. which are both horrible subjects for me. oh well that was my day. a horrible yet delightful day.
p.s. im not doing a new picture because this day has to do with more than i can do in one day. (sorry about the blues, but im in that bluey mood and i wanted to end with dark blue because i love that color. this one doesn't count.)
(order is: First two are freshman year:Lauren, Rain, Stacia, and Brandy, Third is Sophmore year(while i was friends with people my grade this is who i mainly hung out with because we went to concerts all the time): Shannon, Amanda and Lauren; Fourth one is Junior Year: Mackenzie, Chelsea S., Alexa and Symone and last one is this year Senior Year: Chelsea, Sarai, Ashley and Tess. These girls are who made me who i am. If it wasn't for them i literally wouldn't be here today. They keep me alive and happy.
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